I don’t want to initiate

I don’t want to plan

I don’t want to shop

at least not without your specific command.

I don’t want to think

I don’t want to know

I don’t want to anticipate

at least not without your specific command.

I don’t want to arrange

or light candles, or cook,

or arrange implements

or strip naked

at least not without your specific command.

I don’t want mercy

I don’t want a scene to end

I don’t to shatter into reality

I don’t want it to end.